Integration

Photo by Miki Olabarri Powell

 I didn't know how to be with all the parts of myself. The shadow was the part that I wanted to reject. It didn't work. I attracted people in my life who mirrored my shadow. Now I have tools, that are so ingrained in me it feels strange not to do the mental hygiene. Woke up this morning and wrote all the crap that was eating me, meditated and drank some ginger tea before my call with my client. Was able to show up and be present for her. The key is integrating these parts of ourselves. Seeing that they have served us in some way. There are gifts in every wound that we developed to protect a piece of ourselves. As a child I was fascinated by the skins shed by the rattle snakes where my dad lived in Topanga Canyon. They were beautiful, iridescent, a symbol for letting go and rebirth. Tonight is the waxing Crescent moon, my friend @bluestarguidance is teaching a workshop tonight and told me this is a good time to let go. I want to continue to let go of the judgement around my old behavioral patterns and instead see what they are showing me. It is usually that I am looking for more love from outside, instead of filling myself up. This painting by my friend Mishko is what I imagine the inside of my restless mind looks like. What do you want to let go of?